The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread...

[Eivind August]

UC:

So, I was at this local punk concert yesterday. It was great, and I met friends I haven't seen in a while. We got shitfaced, and naturally one of the bands started playing Ace of Spades.

Now, I'm a magnificent, nuanced dancer, but my being drunk led to me hurting my ancle bad during the intense moshing. Didn't really feel it until this morning, when the pain got really bad. Spent all day at the hospital, and after five fucking hours of waiting I learned that it was minor, yet hurtful damage, and that I just have to sit it out, effectively wasting my entire day in a waiting room.

[kbit]

Above freezing at the north pole in the middle of winter, eh?

http://www.slate.com/articles/health_an ... _pole.html

[waltdogg]

We doomed. Never mind lost packages and personal issues.

[psychic vampire.]

We doomed. Never mind lost packages and personal issues.

Fuckin true. If it's not climate change it'll be crop failure or artificial intelligence or something.

[UglyCasanova]

I was supposed to travel with my girlfriend to Bergen (other side of the country) for a few days, but I was too mentally exhausted from all the holiday stress to go through with such a trip. I have severe anxiety when it comes to leaving my comfort zone (ie the city I live in), which is why my gf thought I was simply being a pussy, which to her defence is usually the case. I just knew that if I had gone I/we would have had the worst time because I don't function socially or mentally at all when I'm mentally tapped out. I simply become emotionally unstable and get heavy thought loops (thanks OCD), something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. Usually, it's something I feel like I'm able to deal with, but my mind feels completely depleted of any sort of energy. It's pretty safe to say that I have a strong introvert personality and that I'm in dire need of resting and recharging after what I consider to be very difficult situations (family visit upon family visit). The trip would in this case consist of me doing breathing exercises and spending most of my time either trying to zone out on my phone or computer in our room, if I would even be able to keep my ass on the train for the 6+ hours it takes to get there or staying for the days we meant to stay there.

So, gf left for Bergen anyways, feeling very disappointed and angry (which is totally understandable unless she understands the nuance between generally being a pussy and feeling too weak to go through with such a trip despite being a pussy), while I'm stuck here feeling like a dick even though I know I did the right thing for my mental health. So, we both feel shitty.

Fuck you, my weak, fragile and confused mind.

Honest question:
Asperger syndrome, maybe? It sounds a lot like that! And I (seem to) have that as well. My eight-year-old son has it for sure as the school psychologist said and he will go through a diagnose in the next year. Asperger syndrome belongs to the autistic spectrum and cannot be cured - those people just think different than "the common people". I could bet you've been bullied a lot at school and you had bad grades in sports. Right?

All the best!
Pepe

My GF has Asbergers actually, and while we've discussed (many times) weather or not I might have the same diagnosis we've concluded that I probably do not fit the criteria completely. There's a lot of overlap between OCD and Asbergers, so I understand why you might suggest that. Fun fact though: My GF was an amazing handball player. Teams headhunted her and only a few years ago she got another call from a coach asking her if would consider joining their team (this was 5-6 years after she quit playing), so having Asbergers doesn't automatically mean that you will suck at sports. Thanks for caring and suggesting that though! I would definetly be interested in having another test done (I was diagnosed with OCD at a fairly young age).

I'm sorry to hear about the troubles you went through in school though. Kids can be a bunch of dicks.

EA:

[GuitarSlim101]

Woke up, wanted to go buy groceries, car wouldn't start. Ugh. Jumped it and drove around for an hour after work which will hopefully charge it enough. I do not want to spend money on a new battery. The downside about living above my workplace is that I don't drive enough to keep my Prius' 12 volt battery charged in the winter, and I can't park anywhere that'd let me hook it up to a trickle charger.

Also been depressed and stressed as shit this week. Inventory time at work, which has largely fallen on my shoulders. So, having to balance counting shit with answering the phone, fixing instruments in a timely fashion (hey, can you fit this violin bridge while I stand right here?), selling instruments, managing lessons, making coffee, explaining which guitar strings are the right choice, explaining the new(new in July) POS system to my Luddite boss, and doing it all with a big fucking smile because THAT'S RETAIL. Plus we were closed Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, and are closed New Year's Eve and New Year's Day, so I'll have a couple of slim paychecks.

And fucking Lemmy fucking died. Fuck.

Haven't been sleeping well, haven't been eating well, started smoking cigarettes again after 3 years without them, and I've been drinking way too much. Also stopped taking my anxiety/depression meds after my fiancée and I split last month, so that hasn't helped anything. I'm glad I have my dog and my cat. Those furry bastards are the only things keeping me going right now.

And all you lovely fuzzfolks. Thanks for giving me an outlet.

[Pepe]

My GF has Asbergers actually, and while we've discussed (many times) weather or not I might have the same diagnosis we've concluded that I probably do not fit the criteria completely.

All people with Asperger syndrome have different strenghts and weaknesses, just like everyone else on this planet. There are some good self-diagnose tests in the internet and they tell me 80% overlap with Asperger syndrome in my case.

There's a lot of overlap between OCD and Asbergers, so I understand why you might suggest that. Fun fact though: My GF was an amazing handball player.

And my son is the best swimmer in his class. There are exceptions! The only thing I was good at in sports was volleyball. Everything else: meh.

[UglyCasanova]

Yeah, I just mean that the criteria that separates Asbergers from OCD are traits I do not have.

[MEC]

Woke up, wanted to go buy groceries, car wouldn't start. Ugh. Jumped it and drove around for an hour after work which will hopefully charge it enough. I do not want to spend money on a new battery. The downside about living above my workplace is that I don't drive enough to keep my Prius' 12 volt battery charged in the winter, and I can't park anywhere that'd let me hook it up to a trickle charger.

Also been depressed and stressed as shit this week. Inventory time at work, which has largely fallen on my shoulders. So, having to balance counting shit with answering the phone, fixing instruments in a timely fashion (hey, can you fit this violin bridge while I stand right here?), selling instruments, managing lessons, making coffee, explaining which guitar strings are the right choice, explaining the new(new in July) POS system to my Luddite boss, and doing it all with a big fucking smile because THAT'S RETAIL. Plus we were closed Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, and are closed New Year's Eve and New Year's Day, so I'll have a couple of slim paychecks.

And fucking Lemmy fucking died. Fuck.

Haven't been sleeping well, haven't been eating well, started smoking cigarettes again after 3 years without them, and I've been drinking way too much. Also stopped taking my anxiety/depression meds after my fiancée and I split last month, so that hasn't helped anything. I'm glad I have my dog and my cat. Those furry bastards are the only things keeping me going right now.

And all you lovely fuzzfolks. Thanks for giving me an outlet.

The only advice I have is to quit the smoking, get back on the meds and hang in there.

[Strange Tales]

Another one of my friends passed away. Shit is wild with so many people dying lately. Fucking bummed out.

[psychic vampire.]

Woke up, wanted to go buy groceries, car wouldn't start. Ugh. Jumped it and drove around for an hour after work which will hopefully charge it enough. I do not want to spend money on a new battery. The downside about living above my workplace is that I don't drive enough to keep my Prius' 12 volt battery charged in the winter, and I can't park anywhere that'd let me hook it up to a trickle charger.

Also been depressed and stressed as shit this week. Inventory time at work, which has largely fallen on my shoulders. So, having to balance counting shit with answering the phone, fixing instruments in a timely fashion (hey, can you fit this violin bridge while I stand right here?), selling instruments, managing lessons, making coffee, explaining which guitar strings are the right choice, explaining the new(new in July) POS system to my Luddite boss, and doing it all with a big fucking smile because THAT'S RETAIL. Plus we were closed Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, and are closed New Year's Eve and New Year's Day, so I'll have a couple of slim paychecks.

And fucking Lemmy fucking died. Fuck.

Haven't been sleeping well, haven't been eating well, started smoking cigarettes again after 3 years without them, and I've been drinking way too much. Also stopped taking my anxiety/depression meds after my fiancée and I split last month, so that hasn't helped anything. I'm glad I have my dog and my cat. Those furry bastards are the only things keeping me going right now.

And all you lovely fuzzfolks. Thanks for giving me an outlet.

I am gonna back the advice MEC gave; not smoking and getting back on meds will do wonders. I don't want to just lecture, because doing these things can be very cathartic. Hanging in there and making the right choices for yourself in the moment can go far.

Another one of my friends passed away. Shit is wild with so many people dying lately. Fucking bummed out.

I know we don't know each other, but if you ever need someone to reach out, or just anything in general, I know it can be really hard to make the necessary space for oneself after loss. I'm sorry to hear, though.

[kbit]

Another one of my friends passed away. Shit is wild with so many people dying lately. Fucking bummed out.

[ChetMagongalo]

Another one of my friends passed away. Shit is wild with so many people dying lately. Fucking bummed out.

a lot of people I grew up with have been dying lately, mostly suicides or ODing on heroine. no one i'm close to or would cry about, but it's quite a strong and unsettling vibe around town. they've been one after the other this year, I wonder how long it will go on

[waltdogg]

No matter how much we try to curb our water usage or power consumption the utilities at our new place keep going up every month.

[lordgalvar]

:mad:

No matter how much we try to curb our water usage or power consumption the utilities at our new place keep going up every month.

Same here...California man...

Pretty soon I could see stores raising costs because people walk over to use their bathrooms...

LA Sanitation is charging us like over 200 a month...for what? So they can dump my trash on they street every week...never ends...