Sorry I missed your post earlier.

So did I compete naturally? Well that's kind of a double edged sword there. LOL! To be natural in my mind, it would be without the aid of any supplements or anything else. IE all diet and working out. I don't know ANYONE that does that. Even the guys that are doing natural shows don't. They still use a TON of shit that's just not on the huge list of no no's.
For me, I wasn't permitted to compete naturally. What I mean is this. I was feeling all fucked up about a year ago, went to figure out what the fuck was wrong with me. Had a whole mess of tests and the doc concluded all my issues were coming from low testosterone. So we discussed my options, and decided together that the test shot was the best way to go for the time being. Especially since I have young girls, creams were out of the question.
So I started hormone treatment and was naive or maybe stupid, I don't know, to think they'd let me still compete naturally. NOPE. Since I needed test shots to normalize me, I was disqualified to compete in so called natural bodybuilding. I was forced to compete in the untested side, which made me very fearful. You know since a lot of those guys are on gear and have been using for a long, long time. So they would have a advantage or so I thought.
When I stepped on stage I looked better than everyone else. Why? Well, apparently I'm built the right way for bodybuilding and am a lot bigger than I thought. When I started taking test shots, it made my levels go from 300 (which is super low) to 1000 (which is what a 18 year old male would have or a they may have a bit higher). So I felt fantastic and gained muscle mass like fucking crazy! I swear I gained 10lbs of muscle in like 6 months. Insane.
I was pretty jaded about the whole thing and angry about not being able to compete in the natural federations. Then this year I decided, fuck them. They all suck. I talked to judges and competitors and all of them are a bunch of non humble dicks. Plus a ton of the competitors are just liars and using shit and still getting away with it. Ridiculous. So I decided to stick with the NPC for as long as I compete.
I have been doing strength lifts lately! I hit 300 lbs on incline bench press today! I was really happy!!! I've been working my ass off on getting my bench numbers up. I've never been strong at bench, but could squat a shit ton (like 550, which is a lot for me. LOL). My deadlifts suck ass though, but I can row 225? I don't get it. My body is a weird asshole.
Anyway...yea. I hope that all makes sense??
