The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread...

[goosekevin]

Sorry dude!
I get that sometimes, too. Sad about EVERYTHING for no reason in particular. When it passes, eventually, I look back and think, "why did I feel that way?!"
I hope it passes soon for you.

Thank you
I hope so too its been pretty much the same since I was a little kid and no medication therapy or hospitalisation has been able to shift or break it

[KaosCill8r]

Sorry dude!
I get that sometimes, too. Sad about EVERYTHING for no reason in particular. When it passes, eventually, I look back and think, "why did I feel that way?!"
I hope it passes soon for you.

Thank you
I hope so too its been pretty much the same since I was a little kid and no medication therapy or hospitalisation has been able to shift or break it

We have all been there dude. It's called the human condition. I wish we didn't have to go through it all, but at times I think it's a good thing. Meaning without it we would not be able to create. Can a robot play guitar like Hendrix or paint like Van Gough? I think not. I also believe that people who don't suffer for their art are not truly artists. That's my take on the situation. Hope you feel better soon dude. Stay positive dude. Life balances out in the end.

[Sparrow]

It's never to late to further your education. I didn't get my act together till my 30s and then spent most of it studying. Now I have 2 trades and a diploma of music and another for sound production.

Any way you can whore out your art? It's not selling out if you need to pay the bills!

good stuff Buddy!

[snipelfritz]

I forgot my leftover food , could've been snacking on leftover fish and burger.

[KaosCill8r]

It's never to late to further your education. I didn't get my act together till my 30s and then spent most of it studying. Now I have 2 trades and a diploma of music and another for sound production.

Any way you can whore out your art? It's not selling out if you need to pay the bills!

good stuff Buddy!

Thanks mate. Worked real hard but nearly burned out a few times. But kept chipping away and it all worked out in the end.

[Schlatte]

i miss you guys.

i thought i found happiness, but apparently happiness fucks some other dude now.

work is also crazy busy. i still lurk here as often as i can, but i don't contribute as much as i'd like to.

[gunslinger_burrito]

Fuck online dating. What a waste of my time.

[KaosCill8r]

Fuck online dating. What a waste of my time.

It depends on how you do it. Those pay to join pay to meet in person or contact sites, yeah definitely a waste of time and money. I met my current missus on Facebook. We have been together for nearly 7 years now and still going strong. It is just a matter of being patient and weeding out the real head cases. Though just have fun with it and when the right one comes along, you will know. As long as you know what you really want you will find it. Facebook is great for just picking up a stray root too if you know how to go about it.

[jfrey]

So incredibly incredibly bored.

[Achtane]

Man I gotta get the hell outta here, I'm really tired of my schedule getting fucked around with.
Could work less, work normal hours and maybe even get paid more at a damn fast food place.

[KaosCill8r]

Man I gotta get the hell outta here, I'm really tired of my schedule getting fucked around with.
Could work less, work normal hours and maybe even get paid more at a damn fast food place.

That is a terrible situation. I definitely would do something about that.

[Wes Mantooth]

Not sure what is wrong with me. Yesterday had to take work off since I almost took all of my left over Wellbutrin in order to kill myself. Today I feel fine. Regardless I'm going back to the doctor for a new treatment plan. I don't think my employer will be too happy if I keep having to take a day off every other week just to mentally ground myself.

All this shit happening in the world has me feeling extra hateful too

[gunslinger_burrito]

Not sure what is wrong with me. Yesterday had to take work off since I almost took all of my left over Wellbutrin in order to kill myself. Today I feel fine. Regardless I'm going back to the doctor for a new treatment plan. I don't think my employer will be too happy if I keep having to take a day off every other week just to mentally ground myself.

All this shit happening in the world has me feeling extra hateful too

FUUUUUUCK! Sorry man! I wish there was something I could do that's better than hugging emoticons. I know I'm not a doctor, but I'll reiterate what I think I've posted here before. It seems to me (as a not-doctor, keep in mind) that if you have brain chemical imbalances that are fucking with your life, then pouring other chemicals into your brain might make things worse. Google "COQ10 depression" or "COQ10 antidepressants." COQ10 is an important enzyme for many reasons, and it seems that some anti-depressants deplete it, thus making you feel worse. I'd say that it's worth a shot just trying it out. You can get a bottle from a supplement store for around $10. Even if you're taking anti-depressants at the same time, maybe it might help to counter-balance some of the negative effects. Once again, I'm no medical professional, but maybe you should ask your doc about it.

Oh, and do everything you can to make your environment less stressful for you. Don't listen to NPR if it's bumming you out, don't listen to music that exacerbates anxious/depressive feelings, and so on. Everything in our environment plays a role in how we feel and perceive the world, so change what you can to make things more positive for yourself.

Hope ya feel better.

[KaosCill8r]

Not sure what is wrong with me. Yesterday had to take work off since I almost took all of my left over Wellbutrin in order to kill myself. Today I feel fine. Regardless I'm going back to the doctor for a new treatment plan. I don't think my employer will be too happy if I keep having to take a day off every other week just to mentally ground myself.

All this shit happening in the world has me feeling extra hateful too

Just turn yourself off to it if it's bumming you out too much. I stopped paying attention to it a few years ago and feel much better. The news reports were bumming me out so I stopped watching. The world still turns whether I notice it or not. Ignore the newspapers too. Just live your own life in your own little bubble and fuck everything else. The less you care the happier you will be.

[Wes Mantooth]

FUUUUUUCK! Sorry man! I wish there was something I could do that's better than hugging emoticons. I know I'm not a doctor, but I'll reiterate what I think I've posted here before. It seems to me (as a not-doctor, keep in mind) that if you have brain chemical imbalances that are fucking with your life, then pouring other chemicals into your brain might make things worse. Google "COQ10 depression" or "COQ10 antidepressants." COQ10 is an important enzyme for many reasons, and it seems that some anti-depressants deplete it, thus making you feel worse. I'd say that it's worth a shot just trying it out. You can get a bottle from a supplement store for around $10. Even if you're taking anti-depressants at the same time, maybe it might help to counter-balance some of the negative effects. Once again, I'm no medical professional, but maybe you should ask your doc about it.

Oh, and do everything you can to make your environment less stressful for you. Don't listen to NPR if it's bumming you out, don't listen to music that exacerbates anxious/depressive feelings, and so on. Everything in our environment plays a role in how we feel and perceive the world, so change what you can to make things more positive for yourself.

Hope ya feel better.

I'll look in to it, thanks! Yeah I'm definitely looking for something other than Wellbutrin, made me an apathetic zombie. Usually smoking weed once at night helped me sleep and feel good the next day while still giving me an acceptable emotional range but now it's not working. I really think that the new job and routine have kinda fucked things up for me. I definitely need to find a good exercise plan but I'm always exhausted and lethargic even if I've taken a tolerance break from smoking. Like no matter how much I sleep I'm always tired. So I need to force myself into some daily cardio because I know it'll pay off and help to offset the fact that I sit at a desk all day.

From what I'm reading about COQ10 already it seems like it'd be worth giving those supplements a shot due to their other possible health benefits. Thanks!

Just turn yourself off to it if it's bumming you out too much. I stopped paying attention to it a few years ago and feel much better. The news reports were bumming me out so I stopped watching. The world still turns whether I notice it or not. Ignore the newspapers too. Just live your own life in your own little bubble and fuck everything else. The less you care the happier you will be.

Yeah honestly I'm just going to stay off social media and news sites and just focus on myself. It just sucks that I have the privilege to do so and many others don't. These are issues I'm passionate about and would like to help with but I need to get myself in the right place first or I'm doing no good at all. Whenever I want to go on news or social media sites I'm just going to either play guitar, read, learn some new skill or just otherwise re-purpose that time towards bettering myself.


Thanks dudes, this is just what I needed