kbithecrowing wrote:I need to find a way to make money in a way that I actually like doing before I blow a fucking fuse. My job is pretty cushy in comparison to a lot of shit people have but im not so sure thats a good thing. Just feel like im wasting time.
Ugh. I'm so sick right now. I hate it!!!! I hardly ever get sick and now I have this fucking awful flu that is just killing me! I exercised today to try to make myself feel better, yea big mistake. I feel a hundred times worse. I feel it going into my fucking lungs too. I hope I'm not getting bronchitis.
"I do not have the ability to think rationally 90% of the time and I also change my mind at the drop of a hat".
skullservant wrote:Got some bloodwork done last Friday, was told that I have H Pylori bacteria in my stomach, so I need to go on some heavy antibiotics for it. It would explain some of the weird heartburn that's been going on the past week or so
hope those antibiotics work .. and, you feel better dude.
Blue Strat - Jazzmascis - Tele.
Fender - Squier.
Dr. Scientist - Dirge - FuzzHugger - Montreal Assembly - Hypnodrone.
jwar wrote:Ugh. I'm so sick right now. I hate it!!!! I hardly ever get sick and now I have this fucking awful flu that is just killing me! I exercised today to try to make myself feel better, yea big mistake. I feel a hundred times worse. I feel it going into my fucking lungs too. I hope I'm not getting bronchitis.
hope You feel better soon Jwar!
Blue Strat - Jazzmascis - Tele.
Fender - Squier.
Dr. Scientist - Dirge - FuzzHugger - Montreal Assembly - Hypnodrone.
I just got off the phone with my girlfriend. She is on her period and stressed about her masters degree.
Leading to the almost monthly argument of her toying with the idea of us breaking up...feeling like having a boyfriend is too much (even though we have dated for 2 years now).
She is also claiming to be bored? Though we do LOTS of stuff, mostly things that are her ideas. I can't even fathom how she would be bored. When I ask her to explain or to tell me what would make her less "bored" she can't give me an answer.
The second I take it serious and say, ok - it's done...she back tracks within minutes and realizes that she doesn't want to "do this without" me.
We are supposed to move to another province soon, something that I have made some massive sacrifices for (don't want to get into huge details but I have postponed returning to college/university to work and save money, will have to quit my band, etc).
I hate the feeling like I've wasted so much time but at the same time, besides these random bullshit moments - I am happy with her.
I am confused, pissed and currently have all my pedals running in this loop of chaos/doom which is shaking my house.
it would be nice if i could y'know, be awake without having a completely overwhelming sense of dread alternating with extreme depression
on top of that i have to finish off my resume and start applying for jobs, i feel nothing about my grandpa dying except guilt about not feeling anything and its getting hot again, my body is incapable of not sweating profusely in anything above the low 20's
just want tsomeone else to make all my decisions for me/////hibernate until june/forever
Derelict78 wrote:That probably sounds awful in the best possible way.
Yo, maintenance needs to step up and fix the pipe that's been pissing water through my ceiling for two days. These drop ceiling tiles aren't free guys.
skullservant wrote:Got some bloodwork done last Friday, was told that I have H Pylori bacteria in my stomach, so I need to go on some heavy antibiotics for it. It would explain some of the weird heartburn that's been going on the past week or so
hope those antibiotics work .. and, you feel better dude.
Thanks man. We are on day 3 of the antibiotics. Feels like there is a cinderblock in my stomach every time I eat, but oh well. I hope they are working
Tried going to bed early, but was too hungry to sleep. Got up to make food, but all I had was ingredients for pizza. So now I have a pizza dough on the rise. Food in t minus an hour...
I found my lost e cig the other day after going back to regular smokes. Cleaned it up and took a few drags and almost immediately got a sore throat. Now I am coughing up phloem, have a constant headache, wheezing, and have mild sensitivity to light. The sore throat pretty much subsided and I just missed 3 days of work after getting back from a week long trip. Now I have to convince my sleeping girlfriend to drop me off at the clinic, or figure out how the bus system in this town works. Can't ride my bike because I'm afraid I'll die, and I still owe those assholes at thw clinic money from a recent bladder infection. I absolutely hate getting sick.
neonblack wrote:SELL IT!
Don't form emotional bonds with metal boxes.
Live like me. Flip everything. Romanticize nothing. Accomplish nothing.
