The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread...

[gunslinger_burrito]

I feel you bro. 6 years ago I was at the same point. Bullshit job at the steel factory. Failed band after band, and totally loss for musical creativity cause of my shit mood. I focused on what I was good at and how much income I would need to love however the fuck I wanted. After that I looked at careers that would bring the income I desired within my interests. Than I buckled down and went to school. Some of the worst times I had was during the middle of this. School plus bills and life and work all at the same time is fucking brutal. But you have to look at the ending man and how awesome it will be. 6 years later I'm about to obtain my cpa, mutippe business degrees and I work at nights as a dealer at a casino. Things are still hectic and ruff. But it feels a lot better now that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Just focus on what you need in life to be happy and realize it won't come right away, your going go have to work at it brother

Thanks. I would be down for that except I don't really know what I want to do. I used to try to work as little as I could get away with, but since have realized that I need to make enough money to pay for things like my car breaking when it inevitably happens, not to mention just be able to save money. So now I feel like I need a "real career" but one that fills some of my needs so that I don't feel like I'm throwing away however many hours of my life every week. I have to be doing something that I give a shit about. Part of what's bothering me so much is that all the things I'm interested in aren't really lucrative. At all. At least that's how I feel. I do like the little "formula" you followed though. I'll definitely give it a try.

[Jeff-7]

I didn't really start getting my shit straight until my late twenties, I was pretty disinterested in everything in the outside world. If it wasn't related to music or escaping into books and games I didn't give two shits about it. I bailed out of college because of unfortunate events and lack of interest. Then student loans and hospital bills started piling up, had to work my ass off to stay afloat and was at the end of my chain. Depression was hitting hard, felt like I was in a dead end job and that I would never fulfill any of my dreams. About a year ago a position opened up to work in the I.T. Department for my company. It wasn't my dream job, never foresaw myself going down this road. Less than a year later I'm debt free, and finalizing buying a house. I work a lot of hours and bust my ass but I really enjoy what I do and a lot of outside companies I have to work alongside are impressed that in less than a year I'm capable of doing all that I do. A lot of that is attributable to my boss, he's a great teacher, but it gives me a real sense of pride in what I do.

Basically I'm just saying that you should try looking at possibilities you never considered before. Look for opportunities in things that may not be what you pictured your dream career or path would be and look at pursuing things outside what you consider are your strongest talents or interests. I only applied for this as a long shot chance to get out of my previous job, I only considered myself average at best at a user level in computers but once I got into this I found a real passion and talent for it that I never knew I had and it's been very rewarding.

[Iommic Pope]

Good bosses make all the difference.
Mine had systematically destroyed my self confidence to the point that last year I had an anxiety breakdown.
I put too much pressure on myself to leave this job at all costs for the better of my family and my sanity, and when it and to crunch I folded because I'd overloaded my responsibilities.
Since I had the accident I realised I spend too much time stressing and not enough time actually doing what I want with my life.
Work is as bad ad it ever was, if not worse but I could give two shits. I am turning things around, I'm just dealing with a lot on my plate right now, so I have to be satisfied that it will just take longer to do it right.

My old 2IC left me a note before she bailed that I only picked up today now that I'm back at work and it was the most awesome compliment from a really smart person I've ever had. It meant a lot to know that someone like her have a rat's and could actually be bothered to encourage me.

So fuck your boss if they are actively fucking with you.
But be patient about change.

[D.o.S.]

Everything sucks. Waaah.

[fishtankdork]

Going on 4 months that I've been 900 miles away from my girl. And it looks like we won't be seeing each other for awhile because of legal shit and careers. It's starting to wear on me. She doesn't seem to give a fuck, in her defense we usually spends 75% of the year away from each other so it's not a big deal to her. for whatever reason I'm extra fuckin lonely and needy now. Bitch status. Also met with my lawyers mutiple times about this bullshit dui because thc was in my system. Apparently there was no active canibiods but pa is one of 8 states that say any thc is blood is a dui. Fuck. On top of that in four months legislative was passed so that you can't get bullshit arrested like I did, you need to be smoking and driving for a dui for pot in four months. Dosent give me back all my money and take away my charge though. Fuck all cops. Seriously fuck them. and on top of that some of the coolest shit I've ever seen is in the b/s/t thread but o can't justify any purchases because the cops and lawyers are draining my wallets.

[Gone Fission]

Trying to learn MIDI sysex is making me feel pretty fucking dumb. Thankfully the missus knows hex and binary and deep coding so she has bailed my ass out of a bunch of WTFs, but damn. With any luck, though, I'll be able to have deep control on my iPad of all of my old MIDI effects. Just gonna be a lot of cursing to get there.

[gunslinger_burrito]

On top of my epic rant about a directionless life, my girlfriend just texted me to say that she doesn't want a relationship right now.

The cons are far outweighing the pros in life right now.

[morange]

Ah man, I hate that. At least tell me you're screwing someone way better looking than me or something, not that you're choosing nothing over something with me. Who has ever not wanted a relationship right now? No-one ever, that's who. Not what you want to hear though right now I guess, sorry.

[gunslinger_burrito]

It's alright.

We're talking about it before we do any decision making. If we do split up, it'll be one of those things that just didn't work out, not a bad breakup. But I hate limbo. I don't see any way out of breaking up..... but I don't see any way we could keep it going in a way that's healthy for the both of us.

[D.o.S.]

The cons are far outweighing the pros in life right now.

BEAVIS: yeah, heh heh… hey butt-head, how come like, some stuff sucks, but then like, some stuff is pretty cool? heh heh…

BUTT-HEAD: uh… huh huh… well, huh huh… if nothing sucked, and like, everything was cool all the time, then it’s like, how would you know it was cool? huh huh…

BEAVIS: heh heh, i would know. heh heh… you just said, everything would be cool. heh heh…

BUTT-HEAD: i mean like, if i wasn’t here. huh huh…

BEAVIS: oh yeah, yeah. heh heh… that would be cool. heh heh..

BUTT-HEAD: no, butt-munch. i mean like, let’s say someone came up and just hit you upside the head.

BEAVIS: yeah. heh heh…

BUTT-HEAD: well, huh huh… that would be cool. huh huh…

BEAVIS: no it wouldn’t, that would suck!

BUTT-HEAD: yeah. uh! <smack>

BEAVIS: ahhh! cut it out, butt-hole.

BUTT-HEAD: uh! <smack>

BEAVIS: ahh! heh heh…

BUTT-HEAD: huh huh… now that was cool! huh huh…

BEAVIS: no it wasn’t, that sucked! heh heh…

BUTT-HEAD: huh huh.. yeah, but like, huh huh… ya know after it’s over, huh huh… doesn’t it like, feel pretty cool? huh huh…

BEAVIS: heh heh… oh yeah, yeah, heh heh, yeah, heh heh…

BUTT-HEAD: see, it’s like, you need stuff that sucks to have stuff that’s cool. huh huh…

[gunslinger_burrito]

Believe me, I understand.
It's more that a lot of things are at a kind of impasse.

[D.o.S.]

I feel that.

You know what's annoying? a high noise floor. Fuck that shit right in the face.

[morange]

Yeah.

But

FUCKING AROUND WITH TRANSISTORS

[fishtankdork]

Bad luck parade continues.get home from work 1am my house has water everywhere. 125 gallon fishtank leaked out. Only plus is it wasn't one of my saltwater tanks. However now I have a whole bunch of fish in a Bucket that I don't know what to do with. I have a 200g tank that has 2 sting rays, but I feel like these fish are too aggressive for the stingrays. It's 530 now. I have to be at school at 9 for an accounting test. I'm wasted tired from cleaning all this water up and dragging the fishtank to the garbage. I'm just tired of bad luck.

[imJonWain]

when live gives you a bucket of fish, make soup?