The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread...

[Iommic Pope]

Told my course supervisor I'm dropping out today. She sent me an email saying my host teacher told me I wasn't performing, even though they had told me to my face things were ok. I'm sick of people fucking me around.

Waiting for surgery now.

Nah man don't drop out. Stay just to spite the fuckers. Just demand they help you catch up. It's thier job to educate you, not take the money and set you up to fail. When I was doing my course the harder things got the more I dug my heels in and refused to give up. It worked and I got my Diploma. Commitment does pay off.

I want to stick it through but I've honestly run out of fight.
I spoke with my surgeon in a post op consult today and he said there's no way I could go back to 14-15 hour days to finish my prac anytime soon without risking my healing. This op was a lot more involved than the first.
I'm at peace with that. The amount of anxiety it was generating for me was a pretty good indicator its just not for me.
I'm not devastated. I'll find something else to do.
Just have no idea of what.

Life.

My toddler is having a brutal meltdown.

[KaosCill8r]

Told my course supervisor I'm dropping out today. She sent me an email saying my host teacher told me I wasn't performing, even though they had told me to my face things were ok. I'm sick of people fucking me around.

Waiting for surgery now.

Nah man don't drop out. Stay just to spite the fuckers. Just demand they help you catch up. It's thier job to educate you, not take the money and set you up to fail. When I was doing my course the harder things got the more I dug my heels in and refused to give up. It worked and I got my Diploma. Commitment does pay off.

I want to stick it through but I've honestly run out of fight.
I spoke with my surgeon in a post op consult today and he said there's no way I could go back to 14-15 hour days to finish my prac anytime soon without risking my healing. This op was a lot more involved than the first.
I'm at peace with that. The amount of anxiety it was generating for me was a pretty good indicator its just not for me.
I'm not devastated. I'll find something else to do.
Just have no idea of what.

Life.

My toddler is having a brutal meltdown.

If you have ran out of fight then fair enough. I don't give up the fight because it's what people expect me to do. Or maybe I'm just too dumb to realise I've already lost the fight and just keep fighting anyway.
But yeah if it's causing you anxiety and stress then it's probably the right thing to do. You have to think of your health for you and the families sake.
Whatever you decide to do try and make it relevant to your interests. If you are spending a large % of your time working, then doing something you love is important or training to do something you love. I'm constantly arguing that point with the job network providers and Centrelink drones. But again you have a family to think of first so you have to think differently I suppose.
Is the toddler teething or going through the terrible two's?

[Dandolin]

The universe doesn't want me to play music today. My bass went way out of tune as soon as I picked it up and I couldnt get it in tune Even though I just intonated it. Later I picked up a kalimba and started to find a riff, then I dropped it and it went out of tune.

Fuck you, universe.

Universal detune knob broke off in the "on" position. Our techs are working hard to restore you to normal service.

[spacelordmother]

Find something with oscillators. Those are better detuned.

[alexa.]

play only one string

[neonblack]

I think my perception of my tone depends on my emotional state. When I'm feeling good, my rig sounds good. When I'm stressed, anxious, or depressed my tone is shit and I want to sell all my musical equipment and play video games until I starve to death.

[Sparrow]

if stuff doesn't sound right ..
just kick on ALL yer pedals - or - at least 2 fuzz and delays.
Then .. Crank shit. Hit One note .. let it oscillate into some cool noise.

you will like yer stuff again. or REALLY hate it

[ChetMagongalo]

I think my perception of my tone depends on my emotional state. When I'm feeling good, my rig sounds good. When I'm stressed, anxious, or depressed my tone is shit and I want to sell all my musical equipment and play video games until I starve to death.

yeah I am with you there. sometimes i'm sad and playing music is cathartic and makes me feel better on the flip side. never sell gear when you're in a bad mood!

also my wrists are starting to hurt now when I use the computer, mostly my mouse hand. i'm not really sure why, I have good posture and my wrists are at the correct height it's kind of annoying because i'm having more fun playing games than ever in my life. guess I'll have to do something else anyway

[fcknoise]

My soulmate just broke up with me. Shit I am a mess and don't know where else to go than here. Haha I'm so pathetic

[Disarm D'arcy]

[Twangasaurus]

Sorry to hear that dude and nah man, it's never pathetic to lean on people, especially your fuzzbreaux.

Preach it. Hugs.

[fcknoise]

Thanks guys. I'm with a friend who just became single a week ago as well. It's just... Out of the blue you know? I love her more than anything, but I suppose I'll get over it eventually.

[UglyCasanova]

That's rough man. I got dumped out of the blue a few years back too. Total shocker at the time, but as you distance yourself and start enjoying the different flavours and textures that life has to offer, you will soon gain perspective and enjoy life and your own company again...even more, I would say. Change is always scary, but without change you never learn anything new. Best of luck, bud'!

And never question coming to ILF with your shitty situations.

[gunslinger_burrito]

My soulmate just broke up with me. Shit I am a mess and don't know where else to go than here. Haha I'm so pathetic

Nah. One of the things I love about this place is that we're so supportive of each other.

I haven't been able to play guitar much or draw for any length of time since like January I had that damned tendinitis that kept me from doing almost anything right-handed.... then it seemed to heal about a month ago, only to start to ache again recently. It makes me feel like I can't draw or play guitar. Even when it's mild or not noticeable, I can't write or draw without my right hand tensing up all hardcore. I've been trying to re-teach it to do those things in a relaxed fashion, but it's so so hard. The instinct it has to tense up is so strong, and a lot of the time when I try to relax I can't make the marks/lines I want without my hand literally shaking. Every time I play guitar it's the same with holding the pick. I get so nervous about trying either of those things because I don't want my injury to come back. It's so incredibly frustrating.

That was a long way of explaining how it's been so long (is five-ish months long?) that I've been able to focus on my main passions, that I feel like I'm losing my identity. I've tried playing bass some, but I don't have a bass amp and can't afford one any time soon (I'm not even sure that I'm that excited about it to justify paying hundreds of dollars right now).

So yeah. I don't know what to do with most of my free time, and all the netflix and video games make me feel really useless and unproductive.

Maybe venting will help me out

[Eivind August]

That sucks, dudes.