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i'm sorry.

sorry to hear, man

hang in there

i'm totally depressed. women stop being interested as soon as they see my picture/meet me in person, i STILL can't find work, and my cousin i'm staying with is becoming increasingly intolerable. he's been very kind to me, but he's an unBEARable drama queen who's hostile to everything, nurses grudges like they're rare and delicate orchids, and regularly cuts loose with racist, misogynist, and/or anti-gay rants noxious enough that i sometimes have to leave the room. and now he's pissed off because he left a ton of food out on the countertop unattended and Lulu stole a hamburger. where i come from, you keep cats from stealing food by PUTTING IT AWAY. i need a new life so fucking bad. if it wasn't for my cat and my cheap German guitar projects it'd be really easy to get suicidal again. there just doesn't seem to be any place for me in this world. and i've been searching since the 1970s.

im hugging everyone on this page.

So far, that'd be me.

And me, but you can pay that forward to someone more corporeally spite/hate/rage/apathetic.

I'm just in a lull of disinclination toward enthusiasm. It sucks.

ironic. maybe. it was meant for the last page. fuck my ass.

I lost all of yesterday to anxiety and I have a feeling today will be similar. I am not thrilled about that.

Goddammit! I have ants in my pants!

Fever, head pounding, sensitive to light, yaaaaaay.

I'm really tired, my neck and back hurts from heavy lifting/weird position installation things, and I put tiger balm under my nose to clear my sinuses.

Now I'm going to work on one of my jobs at a primary school, crooked and stiff, bags under eyes and crying from the balmz.

More like funny imagery for you guys than thread specific complaining.

I wrote this twelve hours ago and forgot to press submit. Just came back from second job and my ears are muffly from testing dancey dance bass setup. I GOT TO TEST IT WITH ULVER AND ARVO PäRT AND DEATH GRIPS AND KVELERTAK AND FLORIAN HECKER AND THE OWNER DIDN'T COMPLAIN so it's not so much rage thread anymore. But I'm tiiiiiiiired, guys!

i'm back in depressed/sleep all the time/fuck everything mode. every time i care about anyone or anything it fucks up. i'm actually using the Musima guitar project as Occupational Therapy.

dubkitty wrote:i'm back in depressed/sleep all the time/fuck everything mode. every time i care about anyone or anything it fucks up. i'm actually using the Musima guitar project as Occupational Therapy.

Returning the hugs

I'm also currently a member of the fuck everything, sleep all day club.

I know what it's like to be in that mood

Been hanging out of and on with this beautiful, awesome girl but things are still a bit awkward. Also haven't been in anything even resembling a relationship since I broke off a five year one last August. We will see how this goes considering I haven't felt a deep human connection to anyone in 3-4 years.

Feeling nothing wasn't the worst at first but I'm so tired of always feeling cynical and apathetic. Don't really know how to get those feelings back at this point though

and now, just to make my life complete, i woke up at four o'clock in the fucking morning with the diarrhea from hell.

Wes Mantooth wrote:Feeling nothing wasn't the worst at first but I'm so tired of always feeling cynical and apathetic. Don't really know how to get those feelings back at this point though

yeah...i've been working on getting back my sense of hope and faith in life since my second wife and i split. in 1995. whatever i'm doing, i don't think it's working.