The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread...

[bongoben]

2 joys from today

1- lastnight my laptop hard drive died. Not happy about that.

2- totally forgot about an SMMH auction ending tonight. It went for $120.

Dammit dammit

[kbit]

I renewed the sale listing on my guitar on three local craig's list pages, but it didn't show up on a single one of them. Guh.

[gunslinger_burrito]

I pretty much feel like I've wasted 99% of my opportunities in life so far, because I can never decide to go for something. I'm always "waiting to see if it's the right or best thing to do...." so I never do anything....

I feel like a big pussy because of it.

All I know is I have to get out of this waste of a lifestyle. I feel awkward saying it, but my real talents are fucking going to waste while I work my life away in a grocery store.....

I made plans to go look at a bunch of tattoo shops in Denver (which I live kind of near to) and try to find someone to get tattooed by so that I can hopefully get an apprenticeship in the future....but...I ended up not booking anything because I'm already so covered that if I'm going to get a bunch more from someone with this plan in mind, I want to make sure it works out! I'd be pissed if I spent a bunch of money and time getting my dwindling free space tattooed only to have someone say "no" when I try to ask to learn from them. It feels like a totally sink or swim situation. Either it would work out or I'll be shit out of luck (and money!), only with a few more nice tattoos to show for it.

I already feel like I fucked up (kinda) in the past trying to move on with my life, only to blow most of my savings on booze because I was unemployed... I gotta make my next move count somehow, but I feel so discouraged for some reason.

[sonidero]

I gotta make my next move count somehow, but I feel so discouraged for some reason.

LET'S DO THIS!!!

[basti moon]

I wonder if i'm getting fired tomorrow. I took two sick days as i've been feeling pretty shit but didn't get a docs certificate. Let them know i wouldn't be coming in just unsure if they will care as they are usually pretty chill but um think they are trying to crack down on people showing up for shifts.

That's a crappy feeling.. Have you gotten your written warning already? I'm never sure what different countries' take on employee rights are, but usually it goes informal warning -> written warning -> review -> termination

[jfrey]

So stressed out I haven't been able to eat normally in the past 3 days. I've forced myself to have one small meal each day, but that's all I could stomach. Today I had a bagel.

[D.o.S.]

So stressed out I haven't been able to eat normally in the past 3 days. I've forced myself to have one small meal each day, but that's all I could stomach. Today I had a bagel.

with cream cheese?

Stress is a waste of time, dood. 75% of that shit relates to things that you can't control, and 100% of it will be resolved by the inexorable march of the cosmos anyway.

[tuffteef]

i really hate that i cant light a cig in rec studios anymore
i would be way more efficient if i could spark up while working

[gunslinger_burrito]

Guh. The very act even looking at what kinds of "Career paths" there are out there sickens me. I know the things I love and it seems like none of them will ever support me....

Every time I try to look for ideas of other jobs I could do, it just throws me into a depression.

[basti moon]

I stabbed myself to the bone of my thumb with a stanley.
And the lift I'm using isn't grounded so errything I touch go bzzt in my brain.
And there's a grounding problem somewhere in my dmx chain and there's not a good enough fuse to support the 21 fixtures, including four strobes, that hangs on a giant frame from the ceiling (which I put there pretty much by myself).

And the opening is on saturday.

Also, having to program fixtures from scratch because they're not from known brands. Unknown brands that doesn't specify gobo values on a 100x gobo laser, which means manually finding every one and THEN start doing macros.
I'm not a technician or an installer, I was supposed to tweak the sound system using my educated fancy ears (which I also had to install, including cabling and building speaker mounts) and program some dmx, estimated two weeks work. It's been three months.

Tomorrow I'm going to poo on being polite because owner is stressed out, I'm going to ask for at least 3x what I'm being paid.
My work just ended now, at midnight. And this isn't my only job, also working on scores for a movie and as a special thing.. you know, at school, helping children with adhd. An aid?

So I was thinking, maybe perhaps get in on some of that ILF hugging stuff I've seen you guys do, I dunno..

[kbit]

I hung out with my ex today and it was really fantastic to see her again. We got food together after a social hang out and I ended up telling her I still have feelings for her, which I was going to do at some point, but perhaps the first time seeing each other in a year was not the best time. I feel fairly confident that I can handle myself regardless of how she eventually reacts to what I said, but there's still a small part of me in there that's writhing with worry. My stomach is still sinking. Time will tell.

Also, my parent's friends stole my bottle of wine. Bastards.

[D.o.S.]

I stabbed myself to the bone of my thumb with a stanley.
And the lift I'm using isn't grounded so errything I touch go bzzt in my brain.
And there's a grounding problem somewhere in my dmx chain and there's not a good enough fuse to support the 21 fixtures, including four strobes, that hangs on a giant frame from the ceiling (which I put there pretty much by myself).

And the opening is on saturday.

Also, having to program fixtures from scratch because they're not from known brands. Unknown brands that doesn't specify gobo values on a 100x gobo laser, which means manually finding every one and THEN start doing macros.
I'm not a technician or an installer, I was supposed to tweak the sound system using my educated fancy ears (which I also had to install, including cabling and building speaker mounts) and program some dmx, estimated two weeks work. It's been three months.

Tomorrow I'm going to poo on being polite because owner is stressed out, I'm going to ask for at least 3x what I'm being paid.
My work just ended now, at midnight. And this isn't my only job, also working on scores for a movie and as a special thing.. you know, at school, helping children with adhd. An aid?

So I was thinking, maybe perhaps get in on some of that ILF hugging stuff I've seen you guys do, I dunno..

You've got this. Once it's done you'll start getting the "I gotta do more projects" jitters.

[osbornkt]

Guh. The very act even looking at what kinds of "Career paths" there are out there sickens me. I know the things I love and it seems like none of them will ever support me....

Every time I try to look for ideas of other jobs I could do, it just throws me into a depression.

In a similar boat as you, my friend. Its almost impossible to find something that you can both enjoy and live off of...Stick with it. Eventually something has to open up for us trying to find a place, you'd think

[snipelfritz]

Got more or less ditched by one date and blown off/Hung up on by another "friend," ended up crashing with some cool people I randomly met met.

I have better relationships with people that I don't even know than people I do know. And even those are pretty weak.

And now I'm tired and hungover and need to stay in Milwaukee all day because I thought it would be good to scatter apartment showings throughout the afternoon. I just wish I was at home in bed.

Oh yeah, and then I work from 5-midnight and was supposed to do something after work which I'd rather not miss but might be too tired for.

[greyscales]

I burnt the pad of my thumb taking a pan out of the oven yesterday because this silicone oven mitt is complete shit. Now I can barely hold a pick. All for a tray of biscuits.