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Some people (read: most people) don't appreciate hard work when they see it...

now that my cousin, with whom i'm staying, may lose his drivers' license due to a January DUI bust he's wanting me to stay here after insisting i leave sooner rather than later because he got in my face screaming and i called the cops on him. see, i may be getting into writing academic papers for money and he thinks i will stay here and help pay his bills if he runs out of money paying attorney bills. i'd consider it if i liked being in Chicago, and if he wasn't such a unbearably boorish asshole at times. i'm really, really tired of hearing him calling people he doesn't like "gay-ass fags." (sorry if the words offend...they offend me, too). i just want to get the fuck out of here and go live in Idaho. i came here because i had nowhere else to go, and in retrospect it was foolishly retrograde to move back to the city i left in 1979. things have changed here so much since then, and not in a good way, that it breaks my heart. they ruined much of what was good about this city, and the glitz of Milennium Park doesn't make up for it.

I'm finding it harder and harder to get out of bed
Medication change has made things worse not better and I just feel fucking shitty, no matter what good things happen
At this point I can't fucking be bothered any more
I had a panic attack and screamed at my mum and all That caused it was opening a document to work on

This humidity can blow me.

I hear you...even though the weather here has been surprisingly mild for Chicago, the humidity is a huge pain in thr arse.

I love how when you have an idea at work you are on your own when it comes to transforming it into something tangible and successful especially if it requires shitloads of work... And when it finally is a recognized success, I do love it suddenly becomes everybody's idea and the "team's" success. Unbelievable...

Force-feeding procedure for Guantanamo Bay. Ramadan just started.
http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/video/2 ... -bay-video

Fedex just sent me an invoice for $2,7894.67 'cause apparently some shithead in St. Louis used my billing address when buying heavy equipment from Shanghai.
LOOKS LIKE SOMEONE'S ABOUT TO GET AN EXPLODING JAR OF CUM

snipelfritz wrote:I just realized I owe like $3,600 in medical bills because of one stupid night.

EDIT: hopefully I can run some of this through my insurance, and get some of those knocked down a peg.

I made one call and being sent another bill which is hopefully much smaller, but there's still the ER charge of $2400. My insurance card says $150 ER copay so I'm really hoping for the best with that. I just didn't get the chance to call about it this afternoon yet.

I found out on Saturday that a friend of mine killed himself.

i'm sorry. one reason i'm still alive is that i don't want to hurt the people who still care. i wish your friend hadn't done it. there are too few decent people on Earth as is.

And my great uncle just died. I wasn't very close to him, but it still feels like I'm losing everyone and my life is coming apart.

I have that same tree growing down the street from me, whenever I take the back road its jizz city, what the fuck!

Also, losing people is rough, but its no ones idea, it just happens. Its not like you deserve it and jesus smote them to spite you. But still, death sucks for everyone except the funeral service, those guys make bank off of it.

The Wood Wizard wrote:whenever I take the back road its jizz city, what the fuck!

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