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Might have a job offer coming in tomorrow. I’ll be super excited to get back to work.

I've got bills to pay, shit to do that sucks, motivation to find...but for the first time in over a year, I'm happy. I'm at peace with it all. I've made peace and resolution. My mind is being worked on and that's the best thing that's could happen to me. I'm bipolar and I am finally getting some relief. My life is going to change now for the better.

Congrats JWAR!

nice!

this might brighten your day too:

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YSjsNzffUGQ[/youtube]

That video cracked me up.

Jwar wrote:I've got bills to pay, shit to do that sucks, motivation to find...but for the first time in over a year, I'm happy. I'm at peace with it all. I've made peace and resolution. My mind is being worked on and that's the best thing that's could happen to me. I'm bipolar and I am finally getting some relief. My life is going to change now for the better.

I am really happy for you...now send some of that peace and resolution my way!

Interestingly (to me at least) I'm happier today because I've been worrying about money earlier this week, and decided to put some pedals up for sale (not on here, as most of you are not in the UK, so I thought I'd ask there first, sorry (I feel guilty now ) ).

Anyway, because of that I've been answering questions about them and also giving them a little extra attention in case I don't have them much longer.

The end result has been that not only do I still have all my pedals (as no-one has been interested enough to make an offer on any of them), but now I know a little more about one or two of them that I haven't played in a while

I've also calmed down a bit about the money thing, so I'm not bothered about selling any more, which is always good.

Well, therapy has successfully gotten me through the Halloween season. First year in a long time where I didnt feel like shit. Today is testing my patience but at least I can have that small victory to claim.

Just spent 8 days buckin buds in cali. Most cannabis I've ever seen. Crazy life to live wild west style friggin choppers takin pics and wild fires and hicks druggin drinks at the tavern...turned 31 in that tavern....wild...and the women.......ds9 on a mountain.

The artisinal pizza restaurant around the corner from my work just gave me a free pizza! Pays to take my smoke breaks opposite them I suppose.
Even better, it was a vegetarian one which as a guilty omnivore was super nice.

busting thru code that has been blocking me for months.

its funny when things just randomly hit u when u are doing the most unrelated things.

generally contented over here

Joined a new band today. Learned the songs they have, played one of mine and they liked it and want to use it. Nice people, fun stuff to play. Im super excited. Big thanks to everybody on here for teaching me how to make a guitar sound good and inspiring me to keep making music. Seriously, I love you all. Thank you!

I'm tired as all fuck physically and emotionally, but finally addressing past traumas in therapy has helped me write about them in songs. It helps that I'm not the lead singer in this current outfit, but at this point any way to get this stuff out is positive for me. Here's hoping this is the beginning of moving on.

Got to pick up my glasses yesterday, walking home was really weird and fun because I could actually make things out clearly. Who knew reading registration plates on passing cars could be both fun and life affirming?

I guess back in may I posted about my mom catching cancer and how everything sucked. I haven't really been around here, I've been crazy stressed about everything and I have had basically no money to spend at all this year but I felt like posting a little update.

My mom has gone through surgery, the entire chemo thing and is in the process of getting radiation treatment, but this is also the reason I'm posting in this thread instead of the hate, spite thread. She is going to be fine and they are only treating for eventualities, they can't see any left and overall mom and I are really close now. This is from when I was back home in sweden with her and it captures the entire process in a pic; it's been mostly positive and happy, and I feel so grateful that everything has gone well so far. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bm-mwRylvut/

Secondly, I've been working on a documentary with my friend (who is a documentary film maker), and it's been really exciting. I have gone from not being sure about the scope of the project and how professional it would be to realizing it's 100% legit. It's taken me through the US, a post-apocalyptic larp in poland and to japan. It's set for a rough cut release sometime in may/june and finished I guess after next summer? At one point the costs for post-production is going to run pretty high and we are debating running a crowd funding thing to be able to make it really neat and pretty, plus having the ability to actually finish it. I'll make a thread about it when I know more and maybe some of you would consider donating or sharing it. Idk, that's not the point of this post.

I just kinda wanna say I miss having time to hang out here more. The little extra time I have I usually spend making music and stuff, so that hasn't died out at least. Soon I may or may not be able to post more frequently, depending on exactly how fucking unemployed I'll be after my masters is done, lol