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John wrote:Only you can break the cycle, IEatCats. Be the father your own dad failed to be. There is redemption and it lies within the scope of your willpower.

Tell your wife everything you feel, including about her behavior, but make sure to use "I" language and not "You" language. An honest man will tell her what he is afraid of, but a coward will keep it all to himself until he's had enough and just walks out. Don't walk out on your family; even if you physically stay there, withdrawing into yourself is a form of walking out.

Trust me, I'm a psych major and an old man ;P

I was quoting NeonBlack´s post, but I appreciate the moral support anyway.

...erp...

You guys are the best.

someone on another forum called me a "survivor" the other day. it's not the first timr somebody's laid that classification on me. i've been lost in troubled thought, wondering what exactly the point is of being a survivor.

dubkitty wrote:someone on another forum called me a "survivor" the other day. it's not the first timr somebody's laid that classification on me. i've been lost in troubled thought, wondering what exactly the point is of being a survivor.

A survivor is someone who's been through some shit and hasn't given up. Damaged with dignity. If nothing else, you can take your lumps and inspire others who are feeling sorry for themselves. The point of being a survivor is to be alive, and to make the most of what could always be your last day on earth, because you've made it through days that should have been.

You can be alive and in the moment, you could waste your final moments worrying about shit you can't change and pondering what it means.

What's it gonna be?





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I mean that's cool and all, but I feel like it's just a good excuse to watch that Destiny's Child video again.

I once told Jill she should do a whole album of her hip hop covers. Still don't think that's happened yet.

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I've been planning all the shit I need to get done tomorrow like all week, but now it's almost 3AM and I won't be able to sleep and will be all exhausted tomorrow.

But I'll fucking do it!

Also, Melatonin helps me sleep, but it also makes me have really vivid stressful dream that I wake up stressed out and tired from.

Late-night rant:

I've had a pretty rough week and a half. My econometrics class decided to royally fuck up my schedule by having a midterm and pre-proposal due the same day, and an additional homework two days later. So, I spent somewhere in the neighborhood of 60hrs in the last week and a half doing only econometrics stuff. Also, it was my birthday monday, and my birthday's are always kinda shitty, but I had to get ready for my midterm the next day so I couldn't even go out and pretend to have a good time. Then when I took the exam there was an entire section that wasn't on any of the previous ten years worth of midterms And then I got my exam back in a different class and I did worse than any of the other graduate students

My driver's license expired and I have to try and get the Utah Driver's license division to renew through the mail. However, that means I have to send them my social security card, birth certificate, two pieces of official mail sent to my address in Utah from the last 60 days, a $25 money order or cashier's check, and a form that I have to fill out and have a notorary sign it. The social security card and birth certificate have to be the originals, not copies So now I can't go out with my fellow grads, or really anywhere in Eugene it seems, for three to five weeks while they sit on my goddamned driver's license

To top it all off, last week I went out for drinks with this girl and we both had an excellent time. Or... at least I thought we did. We made plans on Tuesday after my exam, but she had to reschedule because she forgot she was doing stuff with her colleagues that night. Then we were supposed to meet today at seven and she texts me at three saying she had to cancel because she made a bad decision at lunch

So, all week as soon as I've been done with everything I've sitting and drinking while finishing off Supernatural, until I'm too drunk and tired to stay awake any longer

BAD WEEK.

wfs1234 wrote:...she had to cancel because she made a bad decision at lunch

Sounds like a case of the back alley splatters.

dubkitty wrote:someone on another forum called me a "survivor" the other day. it's not the first timr somebody's laid that classification on me. i've been lost in troubled thought, wondering what exactly the point is of being a survivor.

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Ugh, sorry to hear about all that shit Will.

I called in sick to work cuz I felt like taking a personal day to think and play music and maube write some stuff. But ever since the last show I did with Sherm (which went super well) ive been in a fucking hole musically. Almost very time I pick something up it just sucks to my ears.

and makes me think, I spend so much of my time thinking about playing music and recording and writing and when I do its shit. Feel like maybe im making things differently than what's intuitive and more natural. Packed away all my gear. Probably gonna purge a lot of it and try to start over. Bleh.

kbithecrowing wrote: Feel like maybe im making things differently than what's intuitive and more natural. Packed away all my gear. Probably gonna purge a lot of it and try to start over. Bleh.

I'm unintentionally doing this by being broke as shit and I find myself not as sad to see it go as I thought I'd be. It's refreshing, in a way, 'cause I've been unsatisfied with my setup for a long time now even though I like the individual pedals and stuff.

I got stood up tonight. Whatever. I'mma just chill I guess.

Go hang out by the gas station quik-e mart and mack on highschool chicks.