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Wes Mantooth wrote: I'm qualified for positions I like, their hiring process is extremely slow. I just got an email today about a position I applied for in April. The HR department's at colleges and university move slower than any organization I've ever seen, slower than I had ever imagined before.

the private sector job i work at now took almost three months to select me. i almost shot myself before the process was completed.

dubkitty wrote:

Wes Mantooth wrote: I'm qualified for positions I like, their hiring process is extremely slow. I just got an email today about a position I applied for in April. The HR department's at colleges and university move slower than any organization I've ever seen, slower than I had ever imagined before.

the private sector job i work at now took almost three months to select me. i almost shot myself before the process was completed.

God, that's just stupid. What could possibly take so long?

Weed and hallucinogens have been my go-to devices along with music. Don't know if I should drink anymore. I think I may have had a seizure this weekend at a party. I was dumb and forgot that I'm now on new antidepressants and took two vicodin, drank a bottle of wine and three beers along with some smoking. I had been done drinking for an hour and my friend noticed my lips were all white. I told him I felt fine and right after he said that I slowly lost any control over my body, I just fell over, got back up with a shit-eating grin and then fell over a couple more times and was apparently shaking but I kinda blacked out for that part. Thought I was going to have to go to the hospital for a bit but ended up being fine after some puking.

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Wes Mantooth wrote:Sometimes I wonder if I really am depressed. Most days I just feel like I hate the world so much that I don't want to be a part of it. Is there really a coping strategy or cure for that?

Not liking or wanting to be a part of the world around you doesn't necessarily equate to depression. I think they're two separate things, unless you really want to be a part of the world around you. I think the aim of anyone's life should, ideally, be to spend the most time doing what you're passionate about. Unfortunately, we have to feed ourselves and that oftentimes means doing stuff we don't care about for other people. As for coping and so on, my suggestion is to find more people who are into the same stuff you're into, and try to switch out as many things you don't like, that steal your time and energy, for things that you do like, that inspire you. I have found that the periods where I care the least about work (as in, don't let it get to me as much) are when I'm really stoked about whatever I've been up to outside of work.

gunslinger_burrito wrote:

Wes Mantooth wrote:Sometimes I wonder if I really am depressed. Most days I just feel like I hate the world so much that I don't want to be a part of it. Is there really a coping strategy or cure for that?

Not liking or wanting to be a part of the world around you doesn't necessarily equate to depression. I think they're two separate things, unless you really want to be a part of the world around you. I think the aim of anyone's life should, ideally, be to spend the most time doing what you're passionate about. Unfortunately, we have to feed ourselves and that oftentimes means doing stuff we don't care about for other people. As for coping and so on, my suggestion is to find more people who are into the same stuff you're into, and try to switch out as many things you don't like, that steal your time and energy, for things that you do like, that inspire you. I have found that the periods where I care the least about work (as in, don't let it get to me as much) are when I'm really stoked about whatever I've been up to outside of work.

I read it as "I don't like people and what they do". Being misanthropic and having a depression are two completely different things. If you plan on stearing clear of all unnecessary interaction with your fellow man I'd advice you to order a lot of books. I had a good year or two of not being able to cope with what was going on (both worldwide and in my close vacinity), and books at least gave me the option of having a "conversation" and was probably the sole reason for me not going bonkers.

Wes Mantooth wrote:
Sometimes I wonder if I really am depressed. Most days I just feel like I hate the world so much that I don't want to be a part of it. Is there really a coping strategy or cure for that?

Yeah, dude. This:
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I'm beginning to question how much I really want to play live shows. The sheer pain-in-the-ass factor of constantly trying to get in touch with any venue that will book someone like me is getting to be unbearable. It took something like SIX WEEKS for one of them to get back to me by anything other than automated message. I got a number to text, but noooooo reply days later. I think I'd feel a tad bit strange about calling the dude up. Same deal with another venue. I went in there last spring and he said facebook was the best way to get in touch.....no response. The only other place I could try I've already played a couple shows at, and it's kind of out of the way.....the only people who would come are friends who also would be playing.

Edit: also I can't this girl out of my head. I've known her for like 7 years, and have almost dated her a number of times, but we have very little common interests, and I know from previous experience that I tend to sacrifice my own interests without meaning to when I'm seeing someone I really like...... I DO NOT WANT TO ATTEND ANY BALL GAMES OF ANY TYPE, NO THANK YOU. But every time I see her I almost call her up later.......

and clearly I need more social things to do on my days off so I don't end up spending time writing shit like this

had to call in to cancel a shift today because I'm so overwhelmed by anxiety and stress. I'm on the verge of tears right now.

gunslinger_burrito wrote:I'm beginning to question how much I really want to play live shows. The sheer pain-in-the-ass factor of constantly trying to get in touch with any venue that will book someone like me is getting to be unbearable. It took something like SIX WEEKS for one of them to get back to me by anything other than automated message. I got a number to text, but noooooo reply days later. I think I'd feel a tad bit strange about calling the dude up. Same deal with another venue. I went in there last spring and he said facebook was the best way to get in touch.....no response. The only other place I could try I've already played a couple shows at, and it's kind of out of the way.....the only people who would come are friends who also would be playing.

Edit: also I can't this girl out of my head. I've known her for like 7 years, and have almost dated her a number of times, but we have very little common interests, and I know from previous experience that I tend to sacrifice my own interests without meaning to when I'm seeing someone I really like...... I DO NOT WANT TO ATTEND ANY BALL GAMES OF ANY TYPE, NO THANK YOU. But every time I see her I almost call her up later.......

and clearly I need more social things to do on my days off so I don't end up spending time writing shit like this

I would suggest getting to be friends with promoters rather than venues. Most of the reasons that I was able to play a lot of shows when I lived down in Richmond was because I became good friends with the promoters who booked the shows at different venues and always included me if I wanted to be on the bill

But bro, you attend her ball games and she'll attend to yours.

My custom Fuzzhugger was sent from the US on August 22. It hasn't arrived yet. Been in touch with the Norwegian post, and they're like "Sorry bro, it can't be tracked when it arrives in Norway." Much disappoint.

Eivind August wrote:My custom Fuzzhugger was sent from the US on August 22. It hasn't arrived yet. Been in touch with the Norwegian post, and they're like "Sorry bro, it can't be tracked when it arrives in Norway." Much disappoint.

USPS I suppose? My Fuzzhugger Arc Flash took about 2 weeks to get to me in Australia. It sucks but it will get there dude. Think positive. As Tom Petty once said, the waiting is the hardest part.

Yeah, USPS. Though they did their work pretty fast, it's when it got out of the US that the waiting game began. Haven't given up hope yet, but I find it idiotic that it should take such an amount of time. I've gotten pedals from the US within a week of ordering them before.

Eivind August wrote:Yeah, USPS. Though they did their work pretty fast, it's when it got out of the US that the waiting game began. Haven't given up hope yet, but I find it idiotic that it should take such an amount of time. I've gotten pedals from the US within a week of ordering them before.

Yeah it might have gone through Italy. Apparently their postage service is real slow. Maybe their service is being run by the black hand

Eivind August wrote:Yeah, USPS. Though they did their work pretty fast, it's when it got out of the US that the waiting game began. Haven't given up hope yet, but I find it idiotic that it should take such an amount of time. I've gotten pedals from the US within a week of ordering them before.

Yeah it might have gone through Italy. Apparently their postage service is real slow. Maybe their service is being run by the black hand