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I get in these moods where I am so goddamn prickly. I don't like anyone and I want to scream and yell. It feels like no one agrees with me on anything and I just want to leave the world behind. Then, it passes.

chuckjaywalk wrote:I get in these moods where I am so goddamn prickly. I don't like anyone and I want to scream and yell. It feels like no one agrees with me on anything and I just want to leave the world behind. Then, it passes.

>Posted on a Monday morning.

Yep, me too.

Fun fact: even though eBay says you can appeal a case, they explicitly say they don't appeal decisions once you call.

Related note, anyone near DES PLAINES, IL and want to burning bag of poop someone?

Oh life, what a whore you are.

So I had to drop out of my bodybuilding show due to the fact that I mentally could not handle it. I feel like a failure, but then again, I did just win a show in August, so really I'm not. But I have been a fucking wreck since pulling out.

I had been carb free for 14 days, not a huge amount of time, but super depleted mentally and physically. This last week I went ape shit. Ate everything in site. LOL. It's the second time I've done that. You brain is saying "feed me" and so is your body. So I did. And now I'm in so much pain I can barely walk. I hit the gym 7 times last week like a dumbass, and destroyed myself. My body fucking HATES me right now. My tendons have been on fire for two days, in fact writing this hurts. My calf on one side is locked up, hamstring on the other. So I'm in pain and have no time.

I'm actually in the process of trying to get my home ready to sell. Another huge reason I couldn't mentally handle the show thing. I've had sooooooo much going on, that I'm going nuts. My house is changing around me, I'm 9k less in my bank than I was because of all the improvements to sell, and now I'm running out of time. Fuck man. This is the most stress I've been under in a few years. The worst part, I did it to myself. So I can't feel sorry for myself, but I am annoyed.

It will all work out. I'm just tired, cranky and want this year to be over with already.

I hate that "Wish You Were Here" is such a popular radio song.

Easily avoided phenomenon, that.

Not when you're a passenger. Whatever, it's only a short moment of reflection, and sometimes it's kinda nice, but not always.

I'm now officially a cog in the corporate machine. I started at [popular coffee chain] today and I'm training to be a shift supervisor and with my experience I could apparently become a manager fairly easily.

Never saw myself climbing the corporate ladder but I've seen the current manager's gear collection so I ain't that mad.

futuresailors wrote:Fun fact: even though eBay says you can appeal a case, they explicitly say they don't appeal decisions once you call.

Related note, anyone near DES PLAINES, IL and want to burning bag of poop someone?

If I remember correctly, magiclawnchair is in the northwest burbs...I think he can also likely be bribed with beer and/or whiskey.

I am all the time having nasty indigestion and multiple icky poops a day, but I still continue to eat crap. I'm going to go home and have more spicy wings leftover from last night. I have no self control.

I have other probably more significant problems, but that's what is most concerning me. I guess that says my problems aren't that bad overall.

I randomly woke up last night, accidentally mistaking the tag on my pillow for a giant moth flying at my head.

I guess my gf's phone is broken. Can't get a text or call to her. Or I did something, oh welp. Good thing I live almost 500 miles away and I can just forget about it.

And I'm still trying to get my TU-3, $150 and set of "NOS" EL34s back from my "friend." I have a mutual friend looking into this shit coz our "friend" seems to have stolen a pedal from him as well.

neonblack wrote:I'm now officially a cog in the corporate machine. I started at [popular coffee chain] today and I'm training to be a shift supervisor and with my experience I could apparently become a manager fairly easily.

Never saw myself climbing the corporate ladder but I've seen the current manager's gear collection so I ain't that mad.

it's not like you have to do it forever

ChetMagongalo wrote:

neonblack wrote:I'm now officially a cog in the corporate machine. I started at [popular coffee chain] today and I'm training to be a shift supervisor and with my experience I could apparently become a manager fairly easily.

Never saw myself climbing the corporate ladder but I've seen the current manager's gear collection so I ain't that mad.

it's not like you have to do it forever

Yes. One day you're allowed to die.

I've been dying for a perfect 8 hour sleep for a long while. I finally got it but it was in the middle of the day and I need to work tomorrow at 1 in the afternoon, so my sleep is more fudged up than it was to begin with.

What is a precious little boy to do?

I had a long talk with my girlfriend about how bad I make her feel. About the way I keep it all bottled up and end up a miserable asshole. I ended up crying for a solid hour, mostly about my son. I have so fucking far to go.