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Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Wed Jul 20, 2016 12:35 pm
by D.o.S.
we're your real friends, dude, even if we are on the internet.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Wed Jul 20, 2016 12:49 pm
by psychic vampire.
waltdogg wrote:i'm so sick of people, friends, relationships, etc. my only real friends are my coworkers and pets. i hardly see my bandmates anymore. i don't want to go out or do anything on my days off. i feel like i'm sliding back into the place i just barely managed to pull myself out of.
I feel you on some of this. I feel like i spent two years building a place of stability and self-sufficiency, only to lose my job, get broken up with, my car broke down and might require major repairs, the state turned off my insurance just in time for my visit to the hospital... And i know all these things are fix-able, but some days, it just feels hard; like yesterday i went to get my oil changed, and then driving home from the oil change my engine overheated and the car stalled. And when i looked at the engine, one of the brand new wires had fallen off the brand new spark plug that got changed 3 days earlier and i'm too old for this shit. It's not cute anymore.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Wed Jul 20, 2016 12:56 pm
by waltdogg
not even 24. i'm just so sick of shit. i haven't had a car in over a year. just got a job but have too many bills to even try to start saving for a *new* one.
yeah d.o.s. i'd call you guys my friends too. i'd be heartbroken to lose another one of you. and i'd never do that to you guys. i just feel so blindsided by life on a daily basis. i don't want to spend time doing nothing and being alone all the time but i either don't have the energy or just feel like i want nothing to do with most of the human beings i know/knew/met/meet.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Wed Jul 20, 2016 3:45 pm
by friendship
Lexapro: It Won't Cure You Of Anxiety or Depression But At Least You'll Be Too Numb and Empty To Care If You Ever Recover
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Wed Jul 20, 2016 7:15 pm
by waltdogg
fuck. fuck. fuck. my bassist's best friend was just found dead in the woods, suicide. im starting to lose it.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Wed Jul 20, 2016 11:26 pm
by psychic vampire.
God fucking damn, i am sorry man. Please take care, set aside time to do some silly, fun things for yourself, or what ever helps you heal. I'm pulling for you.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2016 3:07 am
by waltdogg
thanks. i'm dealing, i just wish i could do something for my bassist. we don't really live close at all so contact is typically only by phone. and text messages and phone calls and kind words on instagram only mean so much.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2016 10:31 am
by psychic vampire.
Speaking only from my own experience, and i'm sure you know this, i don't mean to condescend, but that phone call might mean the world right now.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2016 10:34 am
by Strange Tales
friendship wrote:Lexapro: It Won't Cure You Of Anxiety or Depression But At Least You'll Be Too Numb and Empty To Care If You Ever Recover
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2016 10:35 am
by hbombgraphics
psychic vampire. wrote:Speaking only from my own experience, and i'm sure you know this, i don't mean to condescend, but that phone call might mean the world right now.
This is good advice........sometimes just listening to someone who is hurting can be a huge help.
Very sorry to hear about the loss...........
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2016 10:44 am
by Jwar
Strange Tales wrote:friendship wrote:Lexapro: It Won't Cure You Of Anxiety or Depression But At Least You'll Be Too Numb and Empty To Care If You Ever Recover
Been on it for 12, going on 13 years!! Embrace the numbness!!! I can't feel feelings man! LOL
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2016 11:30 am
by friendship
jwar wrote:Strange Tales wrote:friendship wrote:Lexapro: It Won't Cure You Of Anxiety or Depression But At Least You'll Be Too Numb and Empty To Care If You Ever Recover
Been on it for 12, going on 13 years!! Embrace the numbness!!! I can't feel feelings man! LOL
9 years for me I love having donkey brains
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2016 12:19 pm
by psychic vampire.
Man, what y'all are talking about is one of the large reasons i'm terrified of going on medication. DBT stuff helps, but i know i should probably give medication more of a try. But i fear that no feelings might be worse for me than the extreme range of feelings i already have.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2016 12:28 pm
by waltdogg
psychic vampire. wrote:Man, what y'all are talking about is one of the large reasons i'm terrified of going on medication. DBT stuff helps, but i know i should probably give medication more of a try. But i fear that no feelings might be worse for me than the extreme range of feelings i already have.
i've been giving medication an honest try. but i don't feel much different after a couple months now.
and that was good advice about the call. but my friends, we've agreed, phone contact doesn't mean shit.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2016 12:36 pm
by psychic vampire.
Again, i can only speak for myself. I fucking hate the phone. But i also know that if more people had called me at any point in the last two months, just to ask "hey, how are you doing, what do you need?" it would have meant the fucking world, and maybe that's not where your friend is at, but also sometimes it's hard to ask for the things you just need/want when you're hurting? I can only offer advice from my own experience.
Medicine and i don't get along, it usually just plummets me into a constant deep depression, or a constant unable-to-sleep mania/mixed state.