The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread...

[actual]

How do you people handle addiction and shit? Every day I say I'm not going to sit in front of my computer and play video games, and every day I end up spending any time not at work playing video games, the literal second I get home. It's awful and I know it's eating me alive and depriving me of doing better things, but I can't stop it. Shit, I don't even think of it just next thing I know I'm playing video games.

Uninstall that shit.
Unplugging your pc might work, but it's so easy to just plug it back in. If you uninstall, you have to make the decision to reinstall the games, and then wait for them to be installed, at which point you might not even feel like gaming anymore. I did it with CSS a couple of weeks ago and it was great.
I'm back blasting noobs now tho, but my approach is different, as in I don't immediately turn to CSS the minute I become bored. Uninstalling also meant that the boredom lead to playing music instead. I felt kinda free, less stressed.

[Strange Tales]

I could try it but I don't know how long that'd work. I have a 75/75 connection, so reinstalling would take minutes at most. I'm just making more excuses, I spent another 8 hours playing last night until close to midnight.

[snipelfritz]

How secure do all y'all feel in your jobs?

I've been unemployed since December.

[Jwar]

I shouldn't be talking about this shit, but my brothers divorce is so fucking annoying. I seriously sometimes hate my fucking family. They make everything so much more complicated and bullshit than it needs to be.

So a few things. Found out my sister in law (or ex) took money from my brother, told his friends some things he said to hurt him, and a few other things. I started feeling bad for my brother and thinking she's being a dick and just trying to take more money from him. Right? People do that shit during a divorce.

Today, I find out that he is already seeing and screwing someone else. Somehow he managed to magically meet someone the day day he filed (at least he told my brother he met her then). Now they are both sleeping at my parents house until he closes on his new house in ten days. This is my parents who are holier than thou Catholics and made me feel like a piece of shit for living with my wife before we were married. They chastised me for years about things like that, belittle me because I don't go to church every week...etc. Somehow for my little bro (who is 30 btw), these same types of rules don't apply.

So I found out and I told my dad that I'm disgusted with him and my mother. I said they were weak people and enabling him to be a terrible person and that I also think he was cheating on his wife prior to divorce which makes him an even bigger piece of shit. I mean, I really let my dad have it for about 30 minutes. He's put me through a lot in my life, so I don't have any issue with telling him how I feel, even though I'm still scared for his health. Fucking ridiculous. This girl seems like some rebound and my brother just wanted to have some sex.

So he hasn't seen his kids in a week because he was too stressed out. Right...

He didn't show up for 3 scheduled visits and I also found out he told his step daughter that she is not his daughter and to not call him dad. He said that the day he signed the paper work. She's 9. She's the monster in this though. That's what my dad has said and my brother. She's evil and has done everything to hurt my brother and his relationship with his wife.

Fuck them all. Seriously. I'm so upset over all this. It's insane.

I'm angry at my brother, my mother, my father, the woman he's sleeping with, and my soon to be ex sister in law. The kids. The fucking kids are being put through hell on earth and one of them is being mentally destroyed. She's a sweet little girl. Sure she is damaged. My God, she has the worst parents in the world, what's to be excepted??? It's not her fault!

UGH!!! I just can't today...

[cherler]

I'd be mad too, no one deserves that kind of shit as a kid. That is absolutely fucked.

[waltdogg]

yeah i'm still dealing with the fallout of my parent's divorce almost three years ago. it sucks being caught in the middle when you just wanna be the objective party.

[Iommic Pope]

Holt shit jwar, thats awful.
I hope that someone is there for that kid to tell her that none of it is her fault.

You're not having a great run of it lately, are you?

[samzadgan]

Jwar...that's horrible mate.

My brother went through a divorce and felt a lot of what you're talking about. He's my older brother but for some reason he acts like a kid going through puberty rather than a 40+ man. This was a few years ago, and luckily I wasn't in the country when it happened, so didn't have to be involved. But since I've been back in seeing how thei daughter is being treated, and it does my head in.

The kids always suffer...the unfortunate thing is man, no one besides the parents can really make much impact on the kids life. If the parents fuck up then that's pretty much it...

Take care mate...

[neonblack]

On a related note, my ex is in Philly for a week with her new bf so her mom and I have to scramble to find childcare for my son because everyone has to work.

She leaves on trips like this once every couple weeks but it's usually for a couple days. She'll be gone a week total when all is said and done. I predict next time will be 2 weeks. Maybe one of these days she'll leave for a trip and not come back. I'm not hoping for that but it seems like the natural progression. She mentioned Japan at some point.

I'm mostly over her at this point but there are lots of times that this shit still hurts pretty bad. But also, it's just inconvenient. She can only see this guy when he flies her out of town or comes to visit, and she just turns off the entire outside world. If we need to get in touch with her, we're fucked because she's in this honeymoon phase with an old fucking rich creep and she can't see that this is the most stereotypical sugar daddy/mistress situation I can imagine.

[jrfox92]

she's in this honeymoon phase with an old fucking rich creep and she can't see that this is the most stereotypical sugar daddy/mistress situation I can imagine.

Tell his wife.

[neonblack]

I don't think he's married anymore. Maybe mistress was the wrong word. Weekend fuck?

[PanicProne]

Missed out on the fuzzrocious 10% off code. Been thinking about a custom order since the start of the year. Ugh.

[Jwar]

Haha discount code. Bruh, just wait, he'll do another one.


So, I cannot stop being angry. I blew up at my dad again last night. I'm starting to think theirs something wrong with me here. Why am I so pissed off about all of this? Why can't I just let it die and forget it???

Today is mothers day, and I don't want to go to my parents house to see my mother because that woman could be there. I told my dad that and he said that he couldn't control that. Then I told him that if she was there, I was going to let my brother have a piece of my mind and tell him exactly how I feel. I was told that I'm not welcome in their home anymore if I do that. Right...I'm the bad guy here for seeing an issue with all of this stuff. I am the one at fault. Me!!! I just cannot get over this shit. I actually want to meet my brother up somewhere and beat the piss out of him like I used to when we were teens. I'm that angry. He left his family for some tramp. I'm not trying to be a misogynist or judging, but I cannot help it!! She's a fucking homewrecker in my eyes and he's also a disgusting womanizing piece of shit!!! I literally do not know how to process these feelings.

So next week, I'm going to make an appointment with my psychologist, who I haven't seen in like 4 years. I want to tell him everything but I don't think an hour session will cover the amount of damage my brain has under gone these last several years. I can no longer cope.

Sigh...I just wish I could learn to let things go. I don't know if my anger is justified.

[popvulture]

Sounds like seeing a therapist is probably a great thing to do—I know it helps me a whole lot whenever I go.

You have every right to be pissed off about the situation—I'd be mad as hell, too. Sometimes you do have to let things go... especially in an instance like this, where it's all out of your control. If you don't think you can go over to your parents' place without losing your shit on your brother, maybe just don't go. Blowing up on him would just make the situation worse, for everyone including you. It'd probably also drive your brother away from you even more.

I'm really sorry about all of this shit. Sounds horrible. You'll be ok, man. My biggest advice would be to talk to your brother about what you think he's doing, but wait until you can do it calmly, without it seeming like you're attacking him.

[chuckjaywalk]

I have this unshakable feeling that no one likes me. I mean, I know my father and step-mother and wife and dog all love me, but I don't think they like me. There's a difference. Like, no one wants to sit and talk about music or watch Forged In Fire or play video games with me. I can make acquaintances. I can be a smile and a handshake. I just want to take turns listening to songs with someone, be excited about things.