The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread...

[Gone Fission]

Our guy passed tonight. We're glad his pain is over, but it's pretty horrible. He's that once in a lifetime dog. The space he filled in our hearts feels torn out and empty right now.

[oscillateur]

If you've spent a couple of months here you should indeed have a decent idea of whether you'd like to live here or not. As far as people teaching English, a friend of mine did that with kids for quite a long time (he got to teach over several years) and is doing more translation-related work now (he's good at that, his Japanese impresses even my wife ). So that's a possibility, but I've heard stories about other places that have no interest in getting employees long-term but just want new teachers every year. The point is to try to stay clear of these...

About the games industry : if you have any interest in making games, try downloading Unreal Engine 4, watch the tutorial videos from Epic Games (the company that makes UE4) and try to do stuff with the engine.

If you're interested in computer science, good programmers are always in demand but that's a skill set that takes quite some time to acquire. Still, programmers can find jobs in other fields too so if you're into that, go for it.

If you're not really into programming, level design can be super interesting too. Depends on what you actually like/are good at, obviously.
And if you're really good at Japanese, translation works pays much, much better than teaching.

By the way, several of my friends (who arrived in Japan long before me) used to teach English here and then moved to other stuff. So there are options...

[MEC]

Our guy passed tonight. We're glad his pain is over, but it's pretty horrible. He's that once in a lifetime dog. The space he filled in our hearts feels torn out and empty right now.

Sorry to hear that. Hopefully time will ease the pain.
Send me a PM if you need to vent.

[Eivind August]

Our guy passed tonight. We're glad his pain is over, but it's pretty horrible. He's that once in a lifetime dog. The space he filled in our hearts feels torn out and empty right now.

Sad to hear. All the best to you and yours, dude!

Backwards: See, it sounds like you've got some really interesting plans there. Working towards them might not be only fun, but it will surely be worth it in the end. And hey, you've managed to learn Japanese by yourself? That's pretty impressive, doesn't really sound like you've only procrastinated.

[Strange Tales]

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did any of you guys/girls have any sense of purpose or clarity when you were 21 years old?
i've been in a complete and utter rut for over a year now and am at the point where i can't relate with almost all of my friends because they've started finishing their degrees and finding careers and getting engaged and stuff, while i've been unemployed/single/a shut-in the whole time since i got fed up with my university course and quit and then decided to quit working and quit my band and just spend all my time absorbed in music/film/anime/games/books etc, basically escaping reality to the point where my memory is now extremely foggy and my family relationships are extremely strained and have developed really erratic anxiety. i've never been to a professional because i've watched a lot of friends 'get help' and end up either becoming completely different people or simply continue to be miserable and it scares the hell out of me (not to demean anybody who does that kind of thing, i just feel that it might not be the best choice for me). i really can't bring myself to 'do' anything, potentially because i lack a lot of conventional motivation (i don't seek to improve my standard of living, am not attracted to other people, feel no obligation toward my family or to be a functional member of society), i really don't know where to start. fucking Gen Y kids these days, huh. i went to a fucking selective high school and studied my ass off so i don't know what the hell happened, really. i could blame my parents but that feels like a pretty shitty cop-out.

i don't know what the point of this post is but i'd appreciate any kind of insight, and if anyone else is in a similar situation and would like to talk about themselves please don't hesitate to drop a line. to be honest i've been lucky enough to have a close friend for a while who has mostly similar issues to myself and that support line is the strongest thing keeping me from seriously considering doing anything rash. i still feel shitty about what happened with Twang recently so i want to try and at least be more conscious of other people with stuff like this because when people can't empathize and share things with others shit tends to get very bad. i'm supposed to be moving to the other side of the country in a few weeks but honestly do not want to anymore, but staying where i am is gonna end up killing me eventually if something doesn't change.

Honestly, you sound exactly like me to a pretty weird point. Basically the only difference is that I stuck through college because I switched to the easiest major possible so I could focus on intaking as much alcohol and drugs as possible. Not that I recommend that.

As for the motivation thing, can't help there. I'm almost 25 and still can't motivate myself to do shit. I haven't seriously studied Japanese in like 2 years now and it really bugs me, but my motivation comes in completely erratic, rare, and random bursts. I've never been able to change that and it sucks. It's gotten better over time, but I think the thing that has helped me the most is finding a med and therapist for me. I definitely recommend it. I had a lot of shitty therapist/med experiences when I was younger, but what matters most is finding someone that understands and will take it slow. Shit definitely helped me. Also, finding the right drug for you is going to take a long time which sucks, but the whole anti-depression medication is a total shot in the dark until you hit it. I think I went through 7 or so medications until I hit Lexapro, which has at least balanced my crazy depression swings.

Also, go through with the move. Nothing sucks the life out of you more than a shitty living environment. That's another big problem for me right now, but whatever, all in due time.

Study Japanese or I'll whip you. Or you can PM me.

[dubkitty]

i did something to my back, pulled muscles or got something in my lower back out of place, and now i can't hardly move without awful pain. sitting up is particularly nasty; a wrong move = spasms in my back muscles. naturally, i have to be at work because i can't afford to take the time off. and besides, lying down doesn't help much. ain't life grand?

[backwardsvoyager]

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If you've spent a couple of months here you should indeed have a decent idea of whether you'd like to live here or not. As far as people teaching English, a friend of mine did that with kids for quite a long time (he got to teach over several years) and is doing more translation-related work now (he's good at that, his Japanese impresses even my wife ). So that's a possibility, but I've heard stories about other places that have no interest in getting employees long-term but just want new teachers every year. The point is to try to stay clear of these...

About the games industry : if you have any interest in making games, try downloading Unreal Engine 4, watch the tutorial videos from Epic Games (the company that makes UE4) and try to do stuff with the engine.

If you're interested in computer science, good programmers are always in demand but that's a skill set that takes quite some time to acquire. Still, programmers can find jobs in other fields too so if you're into that, go for it.

If you're not really into programming, level design can be super interesting too. Depends on what you actually like/are good at, obviously.
And if you're really good at Japanese, translation works pays much, much better than teaching.

By the way, several of my friends (who arrived in Japan long before me) used to teach English here and then moved to other stuff. So there are options...

thanks for all this, man. really appreciate it. i'll probably pick your brain again at some point as i go on and hopefully get a better idea of where i'm headed if that's cool
what i'm probably most interested in is localization, like translating, redesigning and repackaging things for international markets, i don't know how exactly to get into that but i'm gonna try to take a double major in game art design along with japanese language to hopefully get some kind of combined skill set happening, i don't know much about getting hired into something like that but i've been following the increasing trend of crowd-funded localization and it's not a bad time to be involved with that kinda stuff so it's probably not a total pipedream. i will definitely have a look at the stuff you mentioned though because any aversion i have from stuff like programming etc is more due to lack of confidence than lack of interest.

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Honestly, you sound exactly like me to a pretty weird point. Basically the only difference is that I stuck through college because I switched to the easiest major possible so I could focus on intaking as much alcohol and drugs as possible. Not that I recommend that.

As for the motivation thing, can't help there. I'm almost 25 and still can't motivate myself to do shit. I haven't seriously studied Japanese in like 2 years now and it really bugs me, but my motivation comes in completely erratic, rare, and random bursts. I've never been able to change that and it sucks. It's gotten better over time, but I think the thing that has helped me the most is finding a med and therapist for me. I definitely recommend it. I had a lot of shitty therapist/med experiences when I was younger, but what matters most is finding someone that understands and will take it slow. Shit definitely helped me. Also, finding the right drug for you is going to take a long time which sucks, but the whole anti-depression medication is a total shot in the dark until you hit it. I think I went through 7 or so medications until I hit Lexapro, which has at least balanced my crazy depression swings.

Also, go through with the move. Nothing sucks the life out of you more than a shitty living environment. That's another big problem for me right now, but whatever, all in due time.

Study Japanese or I'll whip you. Or you can PM me.

i'm glad i got over the alcohol/drug phase relatively early on because that would certainly be making things a lot worse for me now. i can barely drink anymore because it makes me sick, although for some reason the blessed 生ビール or レモンサワー is totally fine.
i'll probably go and see a counselor once i'm on my own in a few weeks because i'm gonna be piling on extra difficulties needing to look after myself and without some kinda physical support line i'll probably run into a lot of issues, i need to fix my diet before i think about taking medication because i have deficiencies which kinda make the anxiety thing worse than it maybe should be (turns out living off nothing but coffee and biscuits isn't too good for you ). i'm not sure i'd be categorized as depressed anymore but i lose my temper very easily and have been a pyromaniac since i was a kid which is ABSOLUTELY NOT A GOOD COMBO. DON'T GET ANGRY AND BURN THINGS.

feel free to e-whip me if i exhibit more apathetic tendencies, but i can't guarantee that i won't enjoy it.
likewise, i hope you can get your shit sorted too. you're already doing the world a great service with your music distro stuff so you should be proud, but if there's room to do even more then you owe it to yourself to get out there.

[psychic vampire.]

i did something to my back, pulled muscles or got something in my lower back out of place, and now i can't hardly move without awful pain. sitting up is particularly nasty; a wrong move = spasms in my back muscles. naturally, i have to be at work because i can't afford to take the time off. and besides, lying down doesn't help much. ain't life grand?

As someone with a lifetime of back pain due to lyme disease, that has had all sorts of impacts on my life, I can relate, and I am sorry to hear about this. Some things that might help:

Epsom Salt Baths (Srsly)
Black Cherry Juice
Ghost Pipe Tincture, if you can find it, is a non-narcotic painkiller
Massage
Firmer mattress

Of course there is also plenty of medication And less woowoo shit, but I like to do tghings in conjunction.

Hope your back shapes up.

[dubkitty]

it's somewhat better today. i slept for 12 hours, and that seems to have helped. at least i can lean forward towards the computer without having an ugly spasm.

[popvulture]

Currently sitting in a dentist chair, numbing up and waiting to get drilled on.

Sucks. Fucking. Balls.

[Iommic Pope]

What, the potential for boob hat not enough for you?

[aens_wife]

OMG. We got new phones a few months ago and we changed our plan at the same time. We were told it would only go up 30$ or so. Turns out it went up $130 per month, but it is on autopay, so I didn't notice until now. I hate everything. There is no fucking way I am paying $300/month for this god damn computer in my pocket.

Which brings me to a larger point - why are people so fucking duplicitous? This lady obviously knew that our bill was going to go through the roof and she lied about it the whole time. The lack of care for customers is just sickening. WE ARE THE REASON YOU GET TO EXIST!!!

[friendship]

Oh man that happened to me with my ISP. They sweet talked me into ordering a new service, insisting it would cost me slightly less than what I was paying. A prebill came and it was more than we discussed, so I called them and they assured me that the would be only charging me what I was originally quoted. They sent me an updated bill with a completely different number from both the first quote and the first prebill. I called them and they reassured me AGAIN. The actual bill shows up and it's DOUBLE what they quoted me. I tore them a new asshole. I think I probably spent 4 hours total on the phone with them. What did they think, I wasn't going to fucking notice?

[dubkitty]

i miss the 20th century.

[D.o.S.]

I know a lot of people don't like them but my chiropractor unfucked my back pretty tremendously after I'd pulled it so hard I could barely walk/couldn't stand up straight. Might be something to consider, dubs.