I've come to the conclusion that I'm severely depressed, absolutely nothing brings me any joy any more and its affecting pretty much every aspect of my life. I've also come to the realization that I'm at terms with it, not expecting it to change and almost not wanting it to change, and just enjoying the numbness that comes with it. I fear the loss of everything in my life (family, job, band, etc) but that fear this time doesn't manifest in a desire to change as it has many times before in my life, it seems to manifest as a desire for solitude. Which is not at all possible with my life. So I find myself pushing my mind and body beyond its limits just to keep the peace, or status quo if you will,, which simultaneously results in eroding my psyche and what little love I have left for a few select humans. I knew growing up I was supposed to die a martyr (in the sacrificing my life for some one more important to me way, not the ISIL way) from reoccurring dreams and other phenomena (that would be a totally different thread to explain) but this isn't the way its supposed to go down. I am the shield, not the slave.
Iommic Pope wrote:
Skip, you rule. You hate people so much, you're willing to discredit all human progress, its awesome.
So two months ago I smoked pot at noon. Took a nap. Went to school. Visited my mom. Are dinner with her. 9pm On my way home soberity check point. I didn't give a fuck I don't drink. They searched me and my car. I had pot leaf socks on. They insisted I took a blood test or an automatic dui. And big surprise they found thc in my system. Now I have a dui. 9 hours after smoking. Because of pot leaf socks. Court on the 30th. I'm pissed, I'm 30, never been in trouble, never even got a speeding ticket. Would never drive with pot, and bam this happens.
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fishtankdork wrote:So two months ago I smoked pot at noon. Took a nap. Went to school. Visited my mom. Are dinner with her. 9pm On my way home soberity check point. I didn't give a fuck I don't drink. They searched me and my car. I had pot leaf socks on. They insisted I took a blood test or an automatic dui. And big surprise they found thc in my system. Now I have a dui. 9 hours after smoking. Because of pot leaf socks. Court on the 30th. I'm pissed, I'm 30, never been in trouble, never even got a speeding ticket. Would never drive with pot, and bam this happens.
that. Sucks. and. it's total BullShit.
Blue Strat - Jazzmascis - Tele.
Fender - Squier.
Dr. Scientist - Dirge - FuzzHugger - Montreal Assembly - Hypnodrone.
True, if only I had time to write and record it. I haven't been able to pickup my guitar but for maybe 20-30 minutes in the past month, and nobody in a band will listen to the drummer who says he wants to write a concept album about himself and his problems.
Iommic Pope wrote:
Skip, you rule. You hate people so much, you're willing to discredit all human progress, its awesome.
True, if only I had time to write and record it. I haven't been able to pickup my guitar but for maybe 20-30 minutes in the past month, and nobody in a band will listen to the drummer who says he wants to write a concept album about himself and his problems.
Don't take this the wrong way but I fuckin' LOL'd at that. Like actual at the desk chuckles.
Feels like I don't have any time either. I'm envious of peeps like SLK who just seem to fucking crank things out 24/7.
Fishtank -- that's a bummer, but if you live somewhere where the vibe on pot is that severe, why do you have weed socks? It's a variation on why you don't put "cops eat shit" on your bumper sticker, even if some/most cops really do subsist on excrement.
My mom got them for me for Christmas as a joke. Haven't seen her since than so I wore them to make her laugh. Was bad timing haha I don't usually wear stuff that advertises that and I live in pa. It's never really been that serve. At least I thought
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